It seems lately that I’m unable to escape from the theme of lockdown. My thoughts and feelings seem to constantly return to the theme of the lack of physical contact with another human being. I believe this theme is also tied in with my thoughts of feeling disconnected from others as a result of my autism. Of memories of feeling ‘untouchable’ during active addiction yet wanting so much to feel that physical contact. A contact I felt I did not deserve to experience. Could not experience. Feeling like I was reaching out to a fading reality that I was unable to capture. Feeling lost and alone. Hence my latest piece. ‘Untouchable’.