Going with the Flow

Part of my 12 step recovery program involves daily readings. The following extracts are from, ‘The Language of Letting Go’ by Melody Beattie.

“Go with the flow…

Let go of fear and your need to control. Relinquish anxiety. Let it slip away, as you dive into the river of the present moment, the river of your life, your place in the universe….stop trying to force the direction…Let yourself move forward. Let yourself be moved forward…See things with freshness, with newness. You shall never pass by today’s scenery again.

Today, I will go with the flow.”

This is how I have felt about exploring a lighter, more colourful aspect to my work. The anxiety and fear of moving forward out of the darkness of my past work and into a new, vivid lightness that my years in addiction would not let me explore. Am I good enough? Is my work good enough? Should I be painting what I think others want to see? Can I be true to myself. To the latter the answer has to be a resounding yes!

I will let myself be moved forward. I will trust in what is meant to be and I will trust in my own abilities and style for they are mine alone. I do not want to be who others may wish me to be as I can only be me. I never shall pass by this scenery again today. I will trust in the direction I am being taken. I will go with the flow.